It's been a while....

Wow...feels like forever since I have taken a moment to get on here and post some thoughts. I am trying really hard to avoid getting on here in the evenings when the family is home so as not to infringe on family time, and work has been real busy and quite frankly I probably should not be on here at work anyway. I just finally have a moment where I dont have to rush off somewhere and do have any major supper making to do since we are eating leftovers. All is well in the Sulli household. Just the normal busy stuff. My young handsome guy does not start wrestling until 11/17 and praise God we only have one more soccer game left this Saturday and then I get a couple of weeks off and then Wrestling begins. Little miss is excited because she has finally started to learn her routines for ballet class. They are Doing "You cant touch this" and "Getcha head in the game". She cant wait. Although no ballet routine this year...it is all jazz. My kids have one marking period of school down already...3 more to go. They both are doing very well so far.

I am pleased to report that I am doing a little better in the talking to God area too. I find it is easier for me to Journal my prayers so I have been trying to do that. Even though I am not doing it every single night I am still talking/writing to Him a couple of nights a week. Better than not at all. Well I cant think of anything else to report for now. Take care all!

How I appreciate my friends

After spending time with some new friends this weekend I realize more and more how blessed I am that God lines up these kind of friendships. I am blessed to have all my christian friends in my life and Thank God for all of you often. There are certain one's whose personalities that are very like mine that I feel especially blessed to connect with most times. Thank you Lord for my friends.

Now here being another Monday - funny how I noticed that was the last time I was on here was last Monday - I am hoping my schedule finally starts to die down just a tad. Although my young handsome man has decided that he now wants to attempt wrestling (God Help Me!) They are at least scheduled a little later in the day so there wont be as much rushing, but still infringes on my getting to church on Wednesday! ( not liking that). But such is my life! It is what it is!

Monday

Well here it is just another Manic Monday....not sung just by the Bangles...today sung by me, and sung by me just about every Monday. We had a great weekend. We stayed at the MIL's all weekend and it was pretty fun. The little princess is not feeling well tonight, has a cold...again. This is her second one in only a couple of weeks. I seem to think her last one was at the beginning to mid September. It could be allergies but it is most likely a cold. So with that there is no ballet tonight which means I dont get to the gym. Bummer. Unless the LH gets home at a semi desent time so I can go later, but then I still want to get up and go tomorrow morning... so I dont know what I am going to do. For those of you who are interested in any kind of help in the weight loss area, I found this web site today that is free to join and has calorie counting tools on it and stuff like that. It is www.everydayhealth.com or www.my-calorie-counter.com. I just found it and started it today but it seems to be a pretty cool thing. There are still a few pounds I would like to shed and I know that keeping track of what I eat will help me achieve that. Anyway that is all for now...not much else here to report. Everyone have a blessed day!

Frustrated

So last night I get a phone call from my biological father. For those of you who dont know me so well my parents have been divorced since I was 9, and then at age 16 my father and I had a falling out where he did not even bother to communicate with me or my little brother who would have been 7 at the time for 6 years. He just dropped off the face of the earth for that amount of time and then when I had my son in 1995 I got back in touch with him. He is my father and the grandfather to my children and I know God's word says to honor your parents but there are some parents who make that extremely hard. So here is what has me so frustrated right now.
We havent seen him in probably a little over a year and phone calls are usually hit or miss (mostly miss since we are always running so much) but we were actually home for once last night and get this phone call from him and in the course of conversation he mentions how it has been so long since he has seen us or the kids. Now...every soccer season and ballet school year I email my childrens activities to all of the Grandparents (My LH's parents are divorced as well). I realize during the weekday it may be a little more difficult for them to get to a soccer game but my handsome guy is also playing on a Saturday league. So when my father mentions how it has been so long since he has seen us I say well you know there have been plenty of Saturday games they (he is living with his girlfriend/fiance) could have been coming to. And do you know what he says? They have Yoga on Saturdays!!!!!!!! Now....we cant miss just one yoga class for his grandson????!!!! It just angers me. Yoga...yoga?! What is one Saturday morning or afternoon even to see his grandson play soccer?? I guess I shouldnt expect too much since he did the same thing to me when I was a kid, and realizing I need to give that up to God...because obviously I still carry that around...but to be repeating the same behavior to my children is just unacceptable. I do realize it is more important for me and my LH to be at their activities...but I know in their hearts that they wish their grandparents would come and see them too. Now I have to give props to our mothers...they at least usually make it to one. My LH's father and step mother usually choose to babysit my LH's step sister's dog instead of attending something for our kids. I guess there is a part of me that wonders what kind of house hold did these men grow up in? Were their fathers as uncaring and uninvolved as they are? Is that what has made them this way? Is it the era? Are all men from that time period the same? One thing is for sure...last night when I was venting to God about this one thing he impressed on my heart is that one of the reason's we have these men around us is to see what type of grandparents we dont want to be to our future grandchildren. Well, anyway...I obviously need to make time to pray about this matter...it has me so frustrated or maybe the right word would be hurt.

Ponderings

So Ok, my life is typically an open book so I am just going to put myself out there and let some of you all know exactly what my biggest struggle is lately. Here goes...just plain ole taking time to pray. When I first came to the Lord I was on fire, reading the word everynight at bedtime, taking time to pray, or at least journaling my prayers or letters to Him. Now... I struggle big time. Most times my life feels like it is a whirlwind...dont know if I am coming or going half the time. Most days the only time I get to myself is at 5am when I get up to go to the gym...lately that hasnt even been as regular as I would like. Every day I tell myself ok, I dont need to watch TV, and come to think of it...one night a week I even do that...for only 1hr. Now of course on Friday and Saturday nights are family movie nights and we are usually up very late. It is the week nights that has me frustrated. I want to be growing in a relationship with Jesus and I know the only way to do that is by spending time w/Him I am just at a loss as to how to effectively do that. I am not a stay at home mom...I realize they are busy too, but mine is a different kind of busy. I get home from work and either have to find my way to a soccer game or figure out what I am making for dinner...most nights we dont eat until 730-800. Then I am either getting all that cleaned up or trying to get some laundry done or running off to ballet school. It is crazy. Till all settles down... I am ready to sleep. I do manage to do a devotional...but....here is where I get caught up in the works mentality. The devotional I read at night...as well as the 3 I read online during the day at work.....do they mean anything? Does He look at me and say good and faithful servant or is He shaking His head discouraged because He wants more. I mean I know He always wants more....but do you see what I am getting at? One thing for sure is I know I dont pray enough. I am one of those people who mean well and say I'll be praying for ya...and some days I am good during the day when someone pops into my mind I'll say a quick prayer, or when I read an email I'll say a quick prayer, and then other days I do nothing. Am I the only one who goes through this or are there others like Me? Sometimes I feel I am alone in this. My LH is so much more closer to God than I am...I want that yet I do nothing lately to stive after it. I dont know. Well, there is my first major post and I am putting myself outthere. Thanks for listening.

Here we go

Ok, here I am. I now have a blogspot too. Maybe I wont get so much grief from my night in shining armor if I get on here once in a while. Well, now that I ve got it mostly set up, time to go to bed, afterall, I do want to try to get up and go to the gym in the morning.